Good Morning,

I have been married ten years now with two beautiful children but my husband likes to talk with other women on the phone. Of course when he's caught. He always say it never turned physical and he can't give me a clear explanation why he feels the need to socialize with other women. I love my husband and I'm in this for the long haul, but I have really been contemplating having a social life also with the opposite sex. Many times I have come close to giving out my number to interested men, but I don't because to me THATS CHEATING. Even if it never goes past a telephone/text relationship. I have told this to my husband and of course he has gone ballistic. I can't seem to get him to understand how what he requires from me he's not willing to also do. I don't want any other man on this earth but my husband and for him to be loyal to me. When he gets caught of course he's remorseful and trying to do whatever to make sure I don't leave him but this has really gotten old. I FLAT OUT WANT to cheat just to show him how it feels. I'm embarassed to say this, but it's the truth. I have always considered myself to be loyal and being loyal to someone who is disloyal is something I'm finding it harder to deal with. Steve, what should I do? What conversations should me and my spouse be having? He always says how can he possibly be having sexual relations with other women when he can't handle my sex drive? Of course that makes sense but that doesn't make me feel any better about the situation and him straying. When it comes to me and being around other men he is very insecure. I have always been confident and secure in mines but now I find myself being insecure around other women because of his deceitful ways. It's just a whole mess of confusion.