Good morning Steve and Shirley,
I am a 27 year old wife and I've been in love with my husband since I was 17. My husband has always been an awesome man, educated, family oriented, and very hard working. We spend all of our free time together and enjoy each others company. Here's my dilemma, in an accident at work my husband was crushed between two pieces of equipment, which caused severe lower extremity damage, mainly to his manhood. We have not had sex in three years. He will never be able to have sex again in his life and I planned to stick by my man all the way. Well we were very sexually active before the accident and I don't know how to turn that off... I had not been with anyone nor had I desired to be until recently. I ran across a former highschool boyfriend. He and I would just talk and never discussed sex. I never told him about my husband's problem. He and I met one day and I pursued him sexually. My body was yearning for him. I wanted to be intimate so badly with my husband but I couldn't, so I considered a contract fling with the old guy. I didn't plan to fall for him, but the sex was so intense that all I have to do is think about it and I want more. I still take care of my husband. I can't imagine what my husband is going through mentally, not being able to perform with me. He is only 28 and he has to accept that he may never be sexually intimate again. The guy that I have been dealing with is still unaware of why I did what I did and I refuse to tell him. He keeps asking me why because he knows that my husband is a great guy. I would never want to hurt my husband but I allowed my flesh to cloud my judgment. The contract sex is unbelievable. I don't know if I want to end it. I know it was all wrong, but is there ever an excuse to be with someone else?